the softies has a song called "the beginning of the end". i'm in love with that phrase.

it captures the bittersweetness melancholy of the present. a present that will only last a moment, and then become a memory. but moments come, and moments go.

where can we find a pause button?

sometimes it would be so tempting to just FREEZE. and stop. stop, stop, stop right now. cause in that moment everything was perfect.

is it cynical to believe that everything will end? to already predict the end when things have barely started? perhaps it will just allow us to treasure things even more. i feel like i'm in no control of the present that changes far to fast for my mind to grasp. i'm just being pulled by the wave, hopefully not drowning.

right now, i'm still afloat.